Sunday, November 6, 2011

Beautiful Heartbreak...

Had the chance this weekend to attend Time Out for Women and Girls with my sister and our daughters.  We had a great time, and the meeting was full of such amazing and inspirational speakers and performers.  It filled my bucket, and made me want to come home and be better. Many of the the messages were geared toward dealing with adversity and challenges.  This topic has become near and dear to my heart of late, as we have navigated our way through our own challenges with the lawsuit against the people who bought our business, our new business failing, selling our home, cars, and anything else we could, just to stay afloat.  Many times throughout this process, the process of refinement, I have questioned my faith, and whether I was strong enough to make it through what Heavenly Father was asking of us.  Many times, I have felt hope slip away.  Many times, I have wondered whether He was really there, and whether He really cared for me and my small problems, when so obviously there is a world full of billions of people who each need His help.  So many times this weekend, I had the overwhelming feeling as I listened to the messages, that YES!  He knows me.  YES, He loves me and my family.  YES, he knows of our struggles and trials, and YES, He will be there to help me when I need Him.  It's hard to explain, hard to fathom, even, how it works, but He does know you by name.  He knows your struggles, and if you go to Him in prayer, He will let you know that He cares!  What a miracle, and a blessing.

One of the performances that touched me the most was a video shown by Hillary Weeks, of a song called, "Beautiful Heartbreak".  It was so powerful, and I wanted to share it here, just in case there are people reading that wonder whether all of their trials, all of their challenges, all of their heartbreak is in vain.  I want to testify that they are not in vain.  A loving Heavenly Father allows us to have these challenges, allows us to feel heartbreak, so that we can come closer to Him, and to our Savior, who suffered the ulitmate heartbreak as he suffered for all of our sins in the Garden of Gethsemane.  How can we truly come to know Him, unless we are allowed to experience some of what He experienced?  While I can say that I haven't enjoyed the challenges we have been through, I can say that as I look back over our experiences these last few years, and my life, there has never been a time when I have had to turn to my Father in Heaven in prayer as I have during these trials.  There has never been a time when I had to excercise as much faith and trust as I have during this time.  There has never been a time in my life when I have felt as much gratitude for the gospel, and for my testimony as I have during this time.  I can see, as bad as these experiences have been, how they have made me more humble, more grateful, and more trusting in my Heavenly Father, and His plan for me.  One of the quotes I loved was, "We need to let our trials make us BETTER, and not BITTER".  I have seen how easy it is to slide into bitterness and despair, and that is NOT the person that I want to be.

The other thing that I learned from this trial was how important it is to be there for one another, and be patient with those around us.  We may not ever know from just looking at someone, all of the trials and heartbreak they have been through in their lives.  Even people who we know well might have suffered in ways we will never know about.  We need to look at people as our Savior looks at people, and just love them for who they are.  We are put here on earth to serve eachother, and to love eachother, and we need to look out for those who are having a hard time, and as we love and serve them, hopefully even their heartbreak moments can turn from an awful experience, into a "Beautiful Heartbreak".  Enjoy this video, and please know, you are never alone!

 

2 comments:

Ashley said...

Someone sent this song to me a couple week ago and loved it. Amazingly beautiful song!

Theresa said...

Great post. Thank you for sharing. Your faith in this time in your life is inspiring!

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